Trip to Florida Update

I made a difficult decision tonight not to head to Florida tomorrow. One thing after another kept pushing it back, a day here, a day there... I am feeling the weight of some serious writing projects for the two classes I'm taking. I have a research paper due the Saturday I would be getting back and then 4 writing assignments due the following Tuesday because we have to make up for being out on the 4th. Granted, I have "extra" time to do it because class has been cancelled, but since I will be in Florida, it's just going to make getting it done a challenge.

I really want to go, I really want to see everyone, but it's just a long drive to go for a day or so, and I don't feel like I can be gone a week. I know I would be a nervous wreck if I slipped away for a week right now. So much for me being a "P". I guess I was a P in making this spontaneous decision tonight, but I've felt it weighing on me this whole week...

This past week Hannah participated in an art camp at the college I'm working at and had a great time, but it was just another week of rushing around and making things work. I am going to spend a quiet week at home, getting that homework done, taking Hannah on a couple of outings, and just being "still". The rest of the month, I'm going to be running around from one thing to the next, this is the only down time I will have before I start back to work full time in August. It isn't even July yet and I know that I can count the days that I will have free on one hand.

I feel like crud and like a miserable daughter for bowing out on my mom. I have guilt issues that I need to work on. However, I don't feel guilty enough to drag out the suitcase, pack, and drive for 10 hours...