My class

I learned the hard way not to put anything in writing that I don't want to have twisted around and slung back in my face.

Anyway, I'm just stating carefully that I'm not sure what is up with my research class. I sort of psyched myself out from the get go that it was going to be brutal: statistics, research design, math... that sort of thing. Instead, I'm just feeling like I've fallen into a black hole and someone's throwing dirt in on top of me. I feel like I'm not getting enough... Enough of what, I don't know. I just leave there feeling like something is lacking. It's not that it's hard. It's not that I am not understanding it. I just ... well, I don't know, and I will leave it at that for the sake of the blog.

The blog started around the time of my second semester at Webster, so any reader knows that I am pretty uptight about maintaining my GPA. I'm thinking about a PhD program down the road and having the grades to escort me on to the next level. I will just hang in there and wonder some more.

It was hot here today, around 90, but I spent the first half of the day in class and the later part of the afternoon catching a quick nap. It was brutal having to leave at 6 am after driving all day yesterday. Honestly, the drive to SC isn't bad, it's just long. Long, especially when one is tired.

I'm listening to an almost god-awful book on CD. I have to be careful about what I select because of the residual listening Hannah picks up on in the back seat. That means I steer away from mysteries because of potential gore and romances because of the sex. I'm not really sure a biography would hold my interest on a long drive, so I haven't bothered yet. Well, this one I have now is pretty "stream of consciousness" and flips back and forth in chronology and point of view. Odd to me that I wanted to be a writer, enjoyed the whole Beat generation of Kerouac and Ginsberg, but then this lady comes along trying to do the same thing and I just want to mark up her manuscript like a bad resume.

I have to say "hi" to my friend Carol who has taken the first step to completing her master's. Do it, Carol!!! I'm being your career counselor now. :) Set yourself up to take on whatever comes your way, without being ruled out because you need an advanced degree to compete. I know you would rather do something "fun", but really, I think you will find it is fun. Isn't the mantra "If it's free, it's for me?" Go for it!!!